Random Thoughts

While I was browsing random videos on Youtube, I stumbled upon some piano pieces and one of them was the video above. Then I remember that I've just started talking to her again after so long. It was just a simple favor, but thinking that she was the one whose asking, I was so afraid of disappointing her that my hand tremble trying to fulfill it, just how foolish can I be 😂 Then a nostalgic feeling (is that even correct?) creeped out from the depth of my heart giving a warm feeling, something I haven't feel for so long and I realize that I miss her a lot (〃 ̫​〃)

Then I remembered a story from back when I was still in high school, from Ecah, about a pianist's reaction when she requested this one song, but I couldn't remember the title so I asked her. Her answers amused me

                     

While continuing to listen to the song, I started reminiscing the good old days. Those were such peaceful days - talking some random shits, laughing, gossiping, imagining traveling together, camping at a beach somewhere while gathering around a campfire and having fun. I believe some of us do still hoping for this... or not, but I do, just a little bit, hahaha.

Well these are just some random thoughts. It has been so long since I last posted something here, I just thought of letting these thoughts out of my mind before they become a mess. Well, thats it, bye bye.

p/s: I prefer the song above compared to Schubert Serenade ;)

welp

Females were naturally sensitive species and Qiao Anhao had already sensed that Lu Jinnian was avoiding her, but she had no idea why.

She thought that it was probably her love that was causing her random thoughts.

this remind me of so many things

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btw, happy 9th anniversary Eleven! its a bit late though and I just remembered that I actually forgot about it last year :P

crack

i prefer the one covered by rib though 😋 click here to listen to rib version

On the nights when the sound of the rain echos in the air 
I'd hear your laughter inside my heart 
No matter how tightly I tied our strings of fate together, they still came apart 
What a cruel world we live in

I opened my umbrella, but I couldn't fold it back 
I must have been crying 
Because the heavy rain that washed over the whole town 
Already stopped a long time ago

You are overflowing 
And my small body isn't enough to hold you back 
Before I knew it  I've become completely empty 
And my small heart  starts to dry up

All by myself, I'm soiled 
By this cracked up world 
I'm breaking apart  I can't move 
So please, hold my hands tightly in yours

Holding my breath, I tried to smile 
But it hurt so much that I started crying 
Please, no  I don't want to be tied to anyone 
By my string of fate  other than you

I tried stretching out my fingers 
Toward the dull gray sky 
Though I knew there was no way I'd reach it 
I still whispered to myself that I only had a little way to go

I'll try to tie our strings together 
More tightly next time  so 
Just a little more 
Please stay right where you are

I fell into a sea with zero vision 
Even the present is slipping away from my view 
It's so sad I cannot possibly smile 
When you are no where in sight

All by myself, I'm soiled 
By this cracked up world 
I'm breaking apart  I can't move 
So please, hold my hands tightly in yours

credit: Hinamawari

GG

just realised that the due date for report submission was yesterday, patut la he want it asap. i thought the due date was this friday 😂 my mistake, i admit it.

welp, im gonna fail my fyp so yay me 👏

*sigh

im a failure

a disappointment

and a useless person

yay.....

.....?

i wanna cry

but can i?

its my mistake

so i don't deserve it;

the right to cry

Macam mana orang boleh teruskan something yang bukan kehendak diorang? I'm so envious of those who know what they want to do. What I've been studying is not something that I truly wish for. Well, it's not like I know what I want to do now. I wanted to continue my study in architecture, but that dream was shattered, so I stop dreaming. Now I'm clueless. I don't find studying fun, I've lost all the motivation needed since a year ago, or maybe longer than that, I don't know. Right now, doing my FYP feels like a torture. I keep on procrastinating my FYP work. For god sake... I'm useless. It's my turn to present tomorrow but I haven't done anything. Dah hujung-hujung tahun belajar ni buat aku fikir ''Am I doing the right thing? Kalau masa belajar ni pun dah hilang minat macam mana kalau kerja nanti? Am I gonna keep on doing something that I don't want?" Aku masih tak tahu apa yang aku nak buat tapi ada satu benda yang aku yakin; this is not what I want to do.