Hey, it's been quite a long time since I last update this blog huh? It has been 2 weeks since the new semester start. Ugh, my cgpa drop a lot T^T and I'm not ready for assignments and quizzes and even classes >_> I want my holiday back! I want to enjoy my days doing nothing *sobs*
Btw, I'm no longer have a crush on him. I feel absolutely nothing. No more stalking his facebook which I did every morning the first week I had a crush on him. I did say that this crush thingy is temporary but I'm totally surprised that my feeling fade away so fast. I thought it would last longer. I don't know how much longer but not this fast. It's kind of amazing how fast my feeling can fade away... and scary as well. Well, I guess that means I never feel a thing for him to begin with. Perhaps, the excitement of being treated nicely by a butler took over my rationality that I mistook it for crush. Or I'm actually mistaken the meaning of crush?
that's it for now. bye.
now, it's time for depressing moment. ignore this. it just something that i really need to get rid
we're not strangers, we're still friends but that's how i feel about us. no, it's not your fault, really. it just me, being a jerk, running away doing absolutely nothing. it just me, being a jerk, backing off since years ago so that i won't hurt you anymore. ah, that's wrong. that is just an excuse. it's me who i'm trying to save from getting hurt. but i'm a jerk, so i end up hurting you, and me. lame.
