crap

Dulu, bila orang dewasa cakap yang once kau masuk universiti, once kau kerja, you gonna miss your school years, aku tak boleh hadam dan bayangkan sebab just like everyone else, I can't wait to grow up and be free.

Now that I've become an adult, a failure too, I finally understand what those adults mean. School years are the best part of my life. The only concern I have regarding the future is what course should I take for my study. That's it. I miss those good old days.

So that's it?

I can't sleep no matter how sleepy I am. I need to get rid of these thoughts off of my mind but there's no one I can talk to at this time around so here I am.

Is that how you think of us? One of the negative vibe in your life? Since when? I'm speechless. Is that how you spread positive vibe? By getting rid of us the negative vibe? What exactly did we do wrong for you to think of us that way? So all this time you've been forcing yourself to stay? You never said a word and suddenly you decide to leave. Just like that. From apologizing for wanting to take a break to "Sebelum aku move on." in 29 hours. Just wow.

I can't believe that it's over now
I hope you know that I'll miss you
You fought the fight like no other could
Day and night I hope you know, I'm so proud of you

Said goodbye but had to lie
Tonight it's not alright
So I'll try but I can't deny
Tonight will never be alright

Tell me how do I let go?
When all I know is to hold on
Every memory that you left
Keeps me from moving ahead
Tell me how do I let go?

It's been a month, I've been doing good
I wrote this song thinking of you
I hope it helps someone like me someday get through
Losing somebody like you

Said I'd try but had to lie
Goodbye is not alright
So I'll cry from time to time
'Cause goodbye will never be alright

Tell me how do I let go?
When all I know is to hold on
Every memory that you left
Keeps me from…