crap

Dulu, bila orang dewasa cakap yang once kau masuk universiti, once kau kerja, you gonna miss your school years, aku tak boleh hadam dan bayangkan sebab just like everyone else, I can't wait to grow up and be free.

Now that I've become an adult, a failure too, I finally understand what those adults mean. School years are the best part of my life. The only concern I have regarding the future is what course should I take for my study. That's it. I miss those good old days.

So that's it?

I can't sleep no matter how sleepy I am. I need to get rid of these thoughts off of my mind but there's no one I can talk to at this time around so here I am.

Is that how you think of us? One of the negative vibe in your life? Since when? I'm speechless. Is that how you spread positive vibe? By getting rid of us the negative vibe? What exactly did we do wrong for you to think of us that way? So all this time you've been forcing yourself to stay? You never said a word and suddenly you decide to leave. Just like that. From apologizing for wanting to take a break to "Sebelum aku move on." in 29 hours. Just wow.