I can't believe that it's over now
I hope you know that I'll miss you
You fought the fight like no other could
Day and night I hope you know, I'm so proud of you

Said goodbye but had to lie
Tonight it's not alright
So I'll try but I can't deny
Tonight will never be alright

Tell me how do I let go?
When all I know is to hold on
Every memory that you left
Keeps me from moving ahead
Tell me how do I let go?

It's been a month, I've been doing good
I wrote this song thinking of you
I hope it helps someone like me someday get through
Losing somebody like you

Said I'd try but had to lie
Goodbye is not alright
So I'll cry from time to time
'Cause goodbye will never be alright

Tell me how do I let go?
When all I know is to hold on
Every memory that you left
Keeps me from…

wtf

6 tahun lepas kau buang aku.

Sekarang kau contact aku balik.

Kononnya puas dah kau cari aku tapi tak jumpa.

BULLSHIT.

Kau nak apa dari aku sebenarnya setan?

Random Thoughts

While I was browsing random videos on Youtube, I stumbled upon some piano pieces and one of them was the video above. Then I remember that I've just started talking to her again after so long. It was just a simple favor, but thinking that she was the one whose asking, I was so afraid of disappointing her that my hand tremble trying to fulfill it, just how foolish can I be 😂 Then a nostalgic feeling (is that even correct?) creeped out from the depth of my heart giving a warm feeling, something I haven't feel for so long and I realize that I miss her a lot (〃 ̫​〃)

Then I remembered a story from back when I was still in high school, from Ecah, about a pianist's reaction when she requested this one song, but I couldn't remember the title so I asked her. Her answers amused me

                     

While continuing to listen to the song, I started reminiscing the good old days. Those were such peaceful days - talking some random shits, laughing, gossiping, imagining traveling together, camping at a beach somewhere while gathering around a campfire and having fun. I believe some of us do still hoping for this... or not, but I do, just a little bit, hahaha.

Well these are just some random thoughts. It has been so long since I last posted something here, I just thought of letting these thoughts out of my mind before they become a mess. Well, thats it, bye bye.

p/s: I prefer the song above compared to Schubert Serenade ;)

welp

Females were naturally sensitive species and Qiao Anhao had already sensed that Lu Jinnian was avoiding her, but she had no idea why.

She thought that it was probably her love that was causing her random thoughts.

this remind me of so many things

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btw, happy 9th anniversary Eleven! its a bit late though and I just remembered that I actually forgot about it last year :P

crack

i prefer the one covered by rib though 😋 click here to listen to rib version

On the nights when the sound of the rain echos in the air 
I'd hear your laughter inside my heart 
No matter how tightly I tied our strings of fate together, they still came apart 
What a cruel world we live in

I opened my umbrella, but I couldn't fold it back 
I must have been crying 
Because the heavy rain that washed over the whole town 
Already stopped a long time ago

You are overflowing 
And my small body isn't enough to hold you back 
Before I knew it  I've become completely empty 
And my small heart  starts to dry up

All by myself, I'm soiled 
By this cracked up world 
I'm breaking apart  I can't move 
So please, hold my hands tightly in yours

Holding my breath, I tried to smile 
But it hurt so much that I started crying 
Please, no  I don't want to be tied to anyone 
By my string of fate  other than you

I tried stretching out my fingers 
Toward the dull gray sky 
Though I knew there was no way I'd reach it 
I still whispered to myself that I only had a little way to go

I'll try to tie our strings together 
More tightly next time  so 
Just a little more 
Please stay right where you are

I fell into a sea with zero vision 
Even the present is slipping away from my view 
It's so sad I cannot possibly smile 
When you are no where in sight

All by myself, I'm soiled 
By this cracked up world 
I'm breaking apart  I can't move 
So please, hold my hands tightly in yours

credit: Hinamawari