easiest way to hurt someone; betray the trust given *wink*
expectation
high expectation - both side can get hurt
low expectation - simply means you're not trusted (percaya sikit la kot, sikiiiiiiiiit je). *my definition* *i don't give a shit if nobody, except my parents, don't trust me*
conclusion
both can give you emotional pain
I don't trust people anymore, and I'm losing the trust that I've given to almost everyone. and I'm not going to expect anything from anyone anymore. ok, that's bullshit. we can never run from expecting something from someone. well, my expectation gonna very low then.
god, this song is so heartbreaking yet so good (ಥ﹏ಥ)
I keep recalling the moments you were here Each time, it makes me smile So many seasons have gone by Swiftly without a sound
The clock’ s hands are moving I want to move on, but The seasons are leaving me behind Forever and ever
The reason I'm not forgetting you is because you cried Even now I ended up searching (for your voice) This entire time
Getting hurt, and hurt again They say everyone will someday grow up I’m missing you, missing you so much But your voice is just not here Aaaaa Just why won’t this feeling reach you
The distance we’ve been apart If only that can make me stronger I'll keep wishing of the future I believe in Endlessly
However If this is a dream, please wake me up
The conversations we had.. The days the tears were shed.. So I make a wish upon the star No more than this one wish
I don’t want to lose anything anymore We can still protect it Let me hear your name I’ll call you with all my might Yet, it’s just nowhere to be found
Getting hurt, and hurt again They say everyone will someday grow up I’m missing you, missing you so much But your voice is just nowhere to be found
The darkness of this grief Let it be light to another I keep on breathing, and breathing Hopefully this wound will heal someday
I've been living in my own world
believing that nothing's gonna change
and before I realize it
I'm losing you bit by bit
I'm still living in my own world
keep denying that it's happening - losing you
and before I realize it
we already fall apart
I will live in my own new world
where everything happened is just a memory
I'm trying to put an end to these denials
from these past two years
so there will be no more tears
It's our 7th anniversary~! May Allah blessed us and our friendship. May Allah help us in keeping our friendship intact so that it will last forever. We may be apart from each other physically, but don't let the distant tear us apart from each other.
Allow me to send an appreciation message to my precious friend. Kalau ada yang terasa sebab aku tulis untuk dia je, I'm sorry. You guys do know how much I treasure her right? :P
To Tehah,
We have been together for 10 years now. We have gone through some ups and downs within these 10 years. We once kept a distance, but we managed to stay by each other side. We once, almost ended our friendship, we didn't talk to each other for months and again, somehow we managed to stay. Then the same thing happened, and again, we decided to stay. I know it's not good to think this way, I can't help it but think that we may repeat the same thing over and over again. If that will ever happen again, please remember that deep down, I never want us to be separated. All I ever wish for is for us and the other Eleven's members to stay together forever. If you ever notice that I've been away for so long, drag me back. It could be that I'm running away from something again. I'm a coward. I'll never talk about myself if nobody ask me. Even if someone did ask me, there's no guarantee that I'll talk about it. Here's a tip. Force me to talk about anything you want to know. That's the only way you'll ever hear from me. Force here means, keep asking me. Asking me once won't get you anywhere. So yeah, keep asking me the same thing until you get the answers. Last one, remember this, glued it in your memory, use a super strong glue; I love you. I never hate you, not even once. I'll never be able to hate you. No matter how much I get hurt by your words and actions, I'll end up forgive you.
I love you guys as well. I know that I've never really talk about myself. Even if I do talk about it, it always stuff from years ago. That's why, if you have any question, if you are curios about something related to me, just ask. Don't worry about me end up crying from talking about it. Some of you did told me few years ago that you guys are afraid to ask me because you are worried that I might end up crying. *sigh* Don't be stupid guys. Just ask me. Anything, anytime.
Oh! If you just want to talk to me about normal stuff *what's normal stuff anyway?* or you know, talk about stupid shits is fine too. Just send me a text! A call is fine too, depends though.
hahahaha, I'm bored. I'm stressed due to my assignments and test and midterm exam.
I miss you guys la sebenarnya :/ it's our 7th anniversary but never once, we celebrate it together *sigh*
sorry for all these useless rambling. I should be doing my term paper (essay) that must have 2500 words instead of typing all of these stuff *sigh*
Ok la, better go now. It's 12.45am already and none of my assignment is done yet. Well, I won't do it like right now anyway, I wanna go to sleep already, feels so tired.
Aku dekat sinki basuh pinggan mangkuk. Atas freeze sebelah sinki tu ada kotak(?) telur (aku tak tahu apa nama dia, benda yang orang letak telur, yang kau beli sepapan tu, aku tak tau la tapi bapak aku panggil sepapan telur xD). Kucing aku, Tompok nama dia *cliche* cakar-cakar la kotak telur tu then adik aku masuk dapur nak basuh pinggan, sementara tunggu aku siap tu, dia pun borak dengan Tompok. Masa dia nak borak dengan Tompok tu aku tengah cakap dengan dia, tak ingat apa yang aku cakap. Then
Edot: *sambil usap-usap kucing yang tengah bercakar* Aciiiikkkk, Acik buat apa?
Aku: *stare her* Oi!
Edot: Eh, silap! Tompooookkk, Tompok buat apaaaaaa? *gelak-gelak*
Aku: *smirking* Tompok basuh pinggan
The End.
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Faham apa yang jadi? She mistook our cat's name with nickname that she use to call me. Dalam rumah aku biasa tertukar nama kucing dengan kucing lain. Dia? Sengal betul. Lepas tu start la event menganjing dia. Setiap kali cakap atau tanya pasal Tompok, aku jawab and tukar nama Tompok jadi Acik. Sesi menganjing berterusan for almost 3 days. Satu family join weh! Seronok aku kenakan dia xD
